I've got a mutiny on my hands...

I've been trying to focus for the past 1/2 hour and my mind absolutely, unequivocally REFUSES to comply. Alas, it's apparently in cahoots with my writing hand because that's refusing to cooperate, too.

Even the 'reward' of putting smiley-face stickers on my schedule book (only if I study more than 7 1/4 hours in a day) isn't having much influence. Oh yes, I'm totally reward-based. I say it stems from my childhood when my mom would bribe me with peanut M&Ms to not bite my fingernails. Which perhaps also explains my relationship with peanut M&Ms. (It's more than just junk food, we have a thing. Let it be.)

At this rate, I'm going to be entirely useless the rest of the night. Oh, I'm sure I'll be able to watch TV, which lately has become more of a 'let's just flip through the channels' type of thing because it takes too much work to actually get involved in any particular program. Although oddly enough, I'll catch myself on the home shopping networks. Why? I haven't the slightest. All I know is that if I have to sit here trying to force myself to accomplish anything for ONE MORE MINUTE I'm going to want to take a sharp #2 pencil to the eyes.

Ho hum

So today I don't really care that I'm taking the bar in just over a week. Oh, I'm still studying and all that jazz, but I'm not really freaking out. Of course this is being said before I grade the set of evidence questions I just did. Normally I think I'd be all full of nervous energy and just this side of crazy, but I'm just kind of blah about it today.

Although it could be due to the fact that I went to bed really, really late last night. I wasn't up late because I was studying or doing anything productive, but because I was taking all these fun & silly onlin quizzes. What type of happy bunny am I? The "I hate you so bad" happy bunny. How type A personality am I? A+ (no, I'm not kidding). Oh, I could go on and on...

It's not that I want to be all freaked out for the next week, but I'd like to feel a little more nerves than I presently do. Or maybe I feel cool because I've got it all under control. (HA) I don't know...and this is starting to feel like the ramblings of a very tired mind (when it's only 10:30 am). Off to grade those evidence questions (wherein we hope I score fabulously well so I don't throw myself off my balcony)...